Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Weeping Wednesday?

Yup, I'm still around. .and HAVE to change the look of this blog. .it is not only going to be into the 70's here today (in MARCH, for heaven's sake!) when it is normally snowing and blowing, but I'm finding rather staid.  

Very few people know that I have a hidden, rather silly side of me, that truly would embarrass my kids no end. (they really need to lighten up a bit!)  In moments when I have let my Inner Child out to play, I hear those infamous words from my 88 year old mother, "Aren't you EVER going to grow up?", and now I'm telling her "NO!"  She isn't pleased.

But I don't know if it because I've been splitting most of my time between the nursing home where she is now living, or in the oncology department at the Mayo Clinic, where my Hubs is getting treated, but I'm seeing life as a blimp in time. .so much of mine has passed, and there is so much that I would change, but can't.  

And while I'd love to say that I'm casting off the shackles, and letting my inner child fly, she is still restricted, not only by growing obligations, but by my heart too. .I had a bit of a personal scare, discovering that I have developed a hiccup in my heart beats. .and come to find out, it is due to stress. .I internalize everything.  My doctor told me that my heart is fine, but it is emotionally breaking.

For some reason, this song, and her version, has been running through my mind over and over this morning.  It is SO nice, when that happens, to be able to go to You-Tube and there is the very one that you are looking for!  I hope that you will enjoy it as much as I do. .she is phenomenal, and this song is perfect for her. .

P.S.  And no, my Inner Child is not going to remain hidden. She is needed now, more than ever!

Wishing you all a beautiful day! Do something to make your heart sing!

Hugs & Love!